I believe many of us have very strong magnetic properties. We attract things and then they stick to us. We're charismatic- We have charm and soo people stick to us. Like wise- other people have charm and WE are drawn to them. We are compelled by the powers of the universe, by feelings we think we cannot control and we are stuck to their sides- (sometimes) for no better, "mORe" worse. We hold on. We're told that the initial attraction was all you needed to keep you hanging in there . Its the vital spark and that all turmoil to follow is just part of it. We're told that love is messy. We are fed the bullshit that the best damn thing that essentially exists in this world, hurts.
We are told "Love Hurts".
We believe Love hurts and so we stay "attracted", magnetized to the sides of things. Feeling stuck and in turn having things we want to be freed from,stuck to us.
We lack RELEASING energy.We struggle to let things go.
We have spirits of acquisition. MY this. MY that. MY house. MY Car. MY shoes. MY "walk in" closet. MY boyfriend. My girlfriend.MY pearls. MY diamonds. MY weaves. MY butt enhancing panties. MY Implants. . MY jabal. MY side-sex. MY "last resort". MY "married man/woman". MY "nobody affi kno"
We have spirits of acquisition. MY this. MY that. MY house. MY Car. MY shoes. MY "walk in" closet. MY boyfriend. My girlfriend.MY pearls. MY diamonds. MY weaves. MY butt enhancing panties. MY Implants. . MY jabal. MY side-sex. MY "last resort". MY "married man/woman". MY "nobody affi kno"
Our spirits depend on acquisition- even the things we are ashamed to publicly say we have or want- we claim in our hearts and so we have a perpetual need and dependence on these things.
When you have had but a glimpse of what love can be- it can be maddening- border line obsessive . You love love. You love to feel it. You love the laughter it brings. The happiness it brings. The simultaneous feelings of hot and cold as your body tries to stabilize itself since its being thrown out of control just by being in the presence of whom you love.(forgive my run on sentence). Love can be maddening but madness is not all bad all the time. I have no problems admitting that I can be quite mad and unusual but here you are,literally reading my mind- ATTRACTED to my thoughts.
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Love can be described many ways and here is just one of my million definitions and expressions of it.
Love is a rise in the pressure which exist below a Bar named your quality of life. When you meet someone and fall in love,your pressure rises- blood pressure..ALL PRESSURE (including the pressure below that bar rises) and it goes up to your head where your thoughts about your quality of life exist.Due to the Love and pressure factor ,you then draw up a conclusion to attach yourself and to keep this high feeling because now you know what "living" really is and you can't imagine what sort of life you would have without that living breathing, heart racing joint of a person.
Attachment is all well and good.Matter of fact, its fantastic....for a time. It stops being the bomb.com when one person is attached and the other person is not. Who ever is still attached will be forced to drag behind a death mobile chariot shackled by his /her ankles while the apple of their eye/uncaring executioner spies the horizons for new romance- releasing their hair...like Fabio into the breeze..or some gorgeous female with amazing hair, while you- the attached, drag hopelessly, bloody and desperate. That is sometimes what our magnetized attraction is like. We are stuck to things that do not serves us and do not care to be attached to us, though we cling to them.
This spirit of acquisition has us holding on to everything and everyone. We don't want to let go. We don't want to release the past. We don't want to release certain habits.We just want to relive these moments even though its only in our heads.
I know quite well what it is to be profoundly attached to someone. At first its beautiful and romantic when the two of you are together. Everyone looks up to your relationship. At some point things go south and you're the one left with the short end of the stick. Its been said that the power in a relationship belongs to who cares less. That ,I believe is untrue however I do believe that the power in a splitting relationship belongs to who cares less. You know what I mean by splitting relationship right? That stage where its freshly broken off and you fish aren't altogether ready to get back into the sea again...yeh.
Some people stay in the splitting stage for months and others like me, know what its like to be in that stage for years. I look back on the time and I don't know where its gone to, not because I didn't make every attempt to move on and honestly enjoy my life but because no matter how far I roamed the then boulder..now pebble of my romantic attachments was never too far behind.
And it can be like that in relationships. You have a forever friend. A first love. A "i'll never forget you" love. But if both people felt that way in equal proportions then we would not be having this conversation. There would be a relationship going on. If we never get through the splitting stage we run the risk of remaining in a one sided love affair...and truth be told a one sided love affair can go on for very very many years...till one day...you take a seriously good look at the person who has been driving you romantically insane for eons and it finally strikes you like a callot behind a fresh bald head that this "cheese",this person you have been agonizing over, THIS PERSON that you have been experiencing all this mental anguish over...ain't all that.
You finally understand why you were drowning. The Love boat was unbalanced..it was a one sided love affair...
* Stay tuned for part two*
I know quite well what it is to be profoundly attached to someone. At first its beautiful and romantic when the two of you are together. Everyone looks up to your relationship. At some point things go south and you're the one left with the short end of the stick. Its been said that the power in a relationship belongs to who cares less. That ,I believe is untrue however I do believe that the power in a splitting relationship belongs to who cares less. You know what I mean by splitting relationship right? That stage where its freshly broken off and you fish aren't altogether ready to get back into the sea again...yeh.
Some people stay in the splitting stage for months and others like me, know what its like to be in that stage for years. I look back on the time and I don't know where its gone to, not because I didn't make every attempt to move on and honestly enjoy my life but because no matter how far I roamed the then boulder..now pebble of my romantic attachments was never too far behind.
And it can be like that in relationships. You have a forever friend. A first love. A "i'll never forget you" love. But if both people felt that way in equal proportions then we would not be having this conversation. There would be a relationship going on. If we never get through the splitting stage we run the risk of remaining in a one sided love affair...and truth be told a one sided love affair can go on for very very many years...till one day...you take a seriously good look at the person who has been driving you romantically insane for eons and it finally strikes you like a callot behind a fresh bald head that this "cheese",this person you have been agonizing over, THIS PERSON that you have been experiencing all this mental anguish over...ain't all that.
You finally understand why you were drowning. The Love boat was unbalanced..it was a one sided love affair...
* Stay tuned for part two*
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