Balance Stella!...Balance.

“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.” 
― Jim Morrison

Sometimes, I feel guilty because of my inconsistency. Sometimes, I truly feel like I'm letting my readers down.Why? Because I have a voice and I asked people to listen and when they're waiting on my next word..I'm quiet. I'm just about the same age if not younger than many of my readers and being young or old or any age has its given challenges and I can't seem to find it in myself to speak to you about being "put-together" if I honestly feel at the moment that I'm falling apart. I believe in being true to myself.That's what it has been guys. I felt like I was falling apart. I felt like I was struggling to hold on to the good things.The more I tried to be positive,the more it seemed like things would happen to kick me down. Over the past couple days, I put in concerted effort. My mind was working over-time most times just to keep me smiling. I was praying over myself constantly for the simplest of things. I would ask God to cover me just because I was walking down the hallway and I had no idea if something that might potentially upset me lay waiting on the other end. I was tipping the scale...
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Balance is important in life. Being healthy,happy and centred is what I believe God wants for all of us but life is trying to tip the scales constantly. The number of things that can cause vexation of spirit in this fast pace world are far too many. Something as simple as forgetting your cellphone,is enough to throw someone's entire day to the dogs. There are lots of things that threaten to steal our peace and I personally felt like I  was in a three way tug of war. I felt like I was pulling against people who were trying to hurt me emotionally, but worse I was pulling against myself.

 This is important guys~

-to be so focused ,CENTRED and in love with God&yourself that you confidently stand firm against any sort of persecution.Your God-given peace was delicately and deliberatly stitched together.You cannot allow things,people or situations to unravel that beautiful peace.For those of us who have invested much of our time and energy in self-control,we understand the value of peace.It is something you cannot pay for. You may be able to pay for avenues to allow yourself the space/solitude to find it-but all that work is YOU.

 I felt like I was on a sea-saw and people put oil on the centre ....and what a hot mess it was ,to be nervous and slipping and sliding,grappling to stand firm.

BUT NOW I AM OKAY.
I decided to take a break. To allow myself to get away from the window that I was watching the world through.It had become clouded and distorted the beauty of the world in which I live.I needed peace..and I set out to find it.I spent my "PEACE DAY"  on open plains with sea breeze and sunshine..and when that was done,I got a pedicure...because I like feet :)

Life will push you about the place.Sometimes you will be strong to withstand.Sometimes you will push back.Sometimes you will be desperate,sad and unable to balance and you will fall flat...and that is perfectly okay for we are only flesh and blood,and life can get us down at times.Whilst you are down..think,be still,gain your peace ..and rise again...and tell yourself "balance"..much like I said to myself..

Balance Stella!...Balance.