Lately,loneliness has been this massive boulder on my back..pressing me into the ground.
The thing with loneliness though,is that its hard to think that anyone else would know how you're feeling or why you're feeling the way you do-because what you feel is so terrible.
At college,we saw each other everyday and by we, I mean friends,acquaintances,familiar faces. Looking back, I see that the experience was really taken for granted. Since leaving college, there are persons I haven't seen and probably won't see for a while. Its rare to just bump in to the persons you've been longing to see as daily schedule's are so inflexible.
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Sometimes,when I think of it,it really compounds the loneliness,but then I try to brush it off. I understand that circumstances can be out of our hands at times. I remember my Literature lecturer at college telling us that "these days would be the best of our lives"...but you know-..everyone in class just shrugged like.."oh please, with all that homework yall force feeding us,life has to get better than this"
Now..We're out of college and I can't believe the experience came and went sooo quickly. I went to an all girl's catholic school. So going to college would have been the place to meet with all my friends from other schools....
College was amazing. Soo much fun,so much drama,People fell in love...and out of love. I made new friends and lost old ones. Some persons dropped out. Some skipped classes and did weed instead...Some used the freedom to be sexual adventurous. There were sooo many highs and lows. Water fights and school class parties. Students council.
Clearly, you can see how nostalgic the whole after college experience can be. Its only that way if I suppose you had something worth missing. Some persons wrote it off as the worst years of their lives and they thank God its over. I shared these sentiments when I looked at the bad- but my college experience was fun and exciting. I met people there that I fell in love with. I learned so much about life and myself,about responsibilty and accountability. I learned a totally new level of self acceptance and I made no apologies for who I am.
When I left secondary school, I was interested in going off to university immediately. My mom on the other hand believed that it would be worth while to go to college since she said it would help me "mature" and give me two years to breath. Thinking about it now, She was right- I wasn't ready to stay on my own and deal with the responsibilities that came with such.
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Now, loads of my friends have just charted out new courses. We're all spreading in different directions-all wide eyed and hoping to change the world. It makes me feel sad though,remembering how we all had so much fun together and how hard it can be at times to do just that-well the get together part.
Growing up and spreading our wings is inevitable. As such,you just need to accept and work around it. I realize all my friends feel the same and nobody is willing to suffer through it-so we make time for each each other. We pencil in friends into our day when we can. We go out and remain considerate of those who have work in the morning. Recently,we had a games night and I had so much fun. You might wanna try out lil activity and private parties with your friends if you're feeling the same. Some of the guys went camping on the beach. I think they had a bon fire and everything.
Point here is ..
If you miss your friends,make time for them. Try new stuff together. Don't let time pull you guys apart. You'd be surprised how maybe a simple drive together would do wonders for that achey "i miss you so much" syndrome that plagues us post-college.
The thing with loneliness though,is that its hard to think that anyone else would know how you're feeling or why you're feeling the way you do-because what you feel is so terrible.
Sometimes,when I think of it,it really compounds the loneliness,but then I try to brush it off. I understand that circumstances can be out of our hands at times. I remember my Literature lecturer at college telling us that "these days would be the best of our lives"...but you know-..everyone in class just shrugged like.."oh please, with all that homework yall force feeding us,life has to get better than this"Now..We're out of college and I can't believe the experience came and went sooo quickly. I went to an all girl's catholic school. So going to college would have been the place to meet with all my friends from other schools....
College was amazing. Soo much fun,so much drama,People fell in love...and out of love. I made new friends and lost old ones. Some persons dropped out. Some skipped classes and did weed instead...Some used the freedom to be sexual adventurous. There were sooo many highs and lows. Water fights and school class parties. Students council.
Clearly, you can see how nostalgic the whole after college experience can be. Its only that way if I suppose you had something worth missing. Some persons wrote it off as the worst years of their lives and they thank God its over. I shared these sentiments when I looked at the bad- but my college experience was fun and exciting. I met people there that I fell in love with. I learned so much about life and myself,about responsibilty and accountability. I learned a totally new level of self acceptance and I made no apologies for who I am.
When I left secondary school, I was interested in going off to university immediately. My mom on the other hand believed that it would be worth while to go to college since she said it would help me "mature" and give me two years to breath. Thinking about it now, She was right- I wasn't ready to stay on my own and deal with the responsibilities that came with such.
Now, loads of my friends have just charted out new courses. We're all spreading in different directions-all wide eyed and hoping to change the world. It makes me feel sad though,remembering how we all had so much fun together and how hard it can be at times to do just that-well the get together part.Growing up and spreading our wings is inevitable. As such,you just need to accept and work around it. I realize all my friends feel the same and nobody is willing to suffer through it-so we make time for each each other. We pencil in friends into our day when we can. We go out and remain considerate of those who have work in the morning. Recently,we had a games night and I had so much fun. You might wanna try out lil activity and private parties with your friends if you're feeling the same. Some of the guys went camping on the beach. I think they had a bon fire and everything.
Point here is ..
If you miss your friends,make time for them. Try new stuff together. Don't let time pull you guys apart. You'd be surprised how maybe a simple drive together would do wonders for that achey "i miss you so much" syndrome that plagues us post-college.
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