The Natural Fear of Losing One's self

So..I'm sitting here trying to get my thoughts in order as I'm surrounded by family as they watch calypso finals...



In essence,I will admit-I feel distracted especially considering the topic up for discussion.Even in attempt to gather my thoughts to share with you guys..i'm facing so much resistance.However,it's something that needs to be addressed as i suppose i can't be the only one feeling this way.

I can share this much though..My teen years are behind me..and I have grown more self aware.I am still making errors occasionally as is only human.However I have found that naturally there exist dreams and aspirations planted in the hearts of all. My inspiration to address this comes from my personal fear of stagnation-the sort of stagnation that leaves one middle aged and discontented with what they have done so far in life with all the time they  have been blessed with. Some of us,at least those of use who engage ourselves in occasional introspection are more likely to stumble upon such realizations  earlier and more frequently in life-Realizations such as lacking sufficient momentum,sufficient drive to do what we have to do..get where we believe we are destined to be..in as short..or rather in a time frame which will  prove upon retrospection that we have moved efficiently-capitalizing on resources and opportunities presented to us.

Perhaps thus far in the read ..we may not exactly be on the same page. One thing i do know, is that no one wants to be unfulfilled. Whether we want to go to the moon..get a great,well paying job,lose weight or be more decisive and independent individuals. We all have things that we want ..or as our heart sceams to us.."need" to do. Therefore the question i frequent pose to myself is this. I want "this" right..yeh..sooo..what am I doing now..which can contribute to the realization of my dream in the near future.

Focus is ever so important and was one of the words I made mention of recently during a meeting at work.Upon further discussion,many of my peers shared what i consider to be valueable information-instrumental in the success of any driven individual.

What is your dream?
What do you want to accomplish with your life?
How will you feel,if you don't get it?
Will you be able to live without it..and by that i mean without regret?
Are you surrounded by persons who understand your your purpose-be it divine or a learned aspiration?
Are you working towards what you want?

I do have a series of ceaseless questions...really..i could go on forever..much like that stuck tape that haunts me in my mind. But what i really wanted to emphasis is the need to press forward-especially if in mid journey  and troubled my thoughts and feelings which are just pressing you to give up.

You know yourself.You know what you what.You have an idea as to how to get there. Don't waste time.But more importantly you must remember that a great percentage of the initial opposition we will face in pursuit of our dreams comes from ourselves.If you but take a moment to separate truth from all of the opinions and fears you have,you will realize that these are learned doubts,learned insecurities.
Children..before daunted by the "cannot"s of society are fearless in the expression of their hopes and dreams and to be quite honest..part of my inspiration to write this came from what I've have identified to be a lack of ambition among persons who brag maturity and shedding their child-like tendencies but ultimately lack the finer and more admirable characteristics of a child. Characteristics I believe were planted in our hearts from the onset as they would assist our development and stability as we press on through life.

I do respect the concept of shedding old skin, metamorphosis and the natural progression from boy to man..and .chest to breast...however..i believe what will keep us grounded is knowing who we are....where we have hailed...and where we will be..irrespective of what anybody has to say...after all..we only become unsteady about ourselves when we lose focus and measure ourselves by other persons and their progress.

"the only way to really ensure a great mark on an exam whilst sitting in the room with everyone else...is knowing you put in the work...refined your mind and memory..and you're looking in on yourself..keeping your head down...and working .You can't score high by simply watching other people ace and leaving your paper blank..or poorly written"-Latonia




Comments

  1. I love it Stella... I truly appreciated the message. So proud of you ...muahh

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  2. i really couldn't agree more with the point you made about rushed maturity and the loss of 'youthful exuberance,' but honestly, i think our brains are clouded by schedules and chemistry and math and all the other stuff we're consumed by that aid us in getting to where we're *supposed* to be. its hard to maintain a colorful mind when our reality is paper and ink and shades of gray-scale. one of the things that scare me is just not knowing if what we think we want is what we really want. i guess you wouldn't really know until you get it.

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